I literally believe everyone has it harder than me. Despite multiple, very complex health issues with rare findings, I still believe that others are worse off. The hardest time in my life still feels like the year my mom’s Cancer came back, my girls were under 2 and my boss was killed. I know what hard is and this is not that bad.
When I zoom out, I realize things haven’t been great around here in my skin suit. My personal medical journey is complex and another article on another day, when it’s over 40 degrees.
Today, 9.5 weeks out from my latest surgery I’ve learned a few lessons I didn’t want to learn this year. When I’m really ill, my body needs an inordinate amount of post-op help that no one person is able to give me. Like a patchwork quilt, I’ve woven together my healing process.
I’m on self-proclaimed medical leave until April 2025 because, let’s face it, careers do not mean anything when you are sick or unwell.
Lessons from a healing body, mind and spirit.
– work can wait
– your body talks in volumes, each chapter has a different ending, read the whole book
– no relationship with others is not as important as the one with myself (including literally everyone)
– no one (not a Doctor. Friend. Kid. Husband) has any idea what you are going through. SPEAK up, put the quilt together, find answers and do not defend your feelings or experiences.
– when all the wheels come off, things become VERY clear. Priorities present themselves. It’s liberating, harsh and impacts the trajectory of the rest of your life. That feels big, and it is.
– being hard on yourself is not the point, allow time to heal and be kind to yourself. This is perhaps the hardest part for me as an athlete and active human. I cancelled everything –events, clients, 1.1s.
– people say really weird sh’t when you are sick, that’s about them, not you. I’ve stopped answering intimate questions no one needs to know about. My jealousy runs wild of those working out or playing tennis or doing Yoga or holding poses.
– I can still do a lot to find my Ikiagi or purpose even when all I can do is rest, ice and stretch. Reading, writing, cooking again, and slow yoga with shoes on and skipping half the moves.
– my quilt of healing looks differently than anyone else. The resources I crave and find are researched and intuitively pick that range from Therapy to reiki to aura cleansing to acupuncture to PT to cold laser to Sleep and lots of bad tv.
If you are in healing and need a friend to chat, find a time to connect.
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