Over the weekend, Kid A was sick. Kid A woke up and vomited, then went back to sleep shortly. It was not too surprising because there’s a virus going around, and it is school time again. I definitely watched Kid A for some time, but it made me think. It made me think about verbal diarrhea. Without a filter, or due to feeling uncomfortable, or anxiety, really any reason, a person can say too much. I then thought of what is the opposite, besides being mute, by choice. I thought emotional constipation would be the opposite. Things, particularly words, emotions, feelings, get stuck. May be this is a far fetched concept, but these are the thoughts I had at 1 am over the weekend.
Emotional Constipation is a term I use to refer to an emotional state when I know I am feeling something, but not sure what or how to express it, not sure about the origin. It happens, and has happened. It happens less frequently because I have addressed some of my inability to express frustration, failure, fear, and other emotions.
I found that I had the lack of really insight. It wasn’t until I gained the insight over the past few years that I am more aware. So, what was the trigger for opening up? It was a sequence of several things, and that is another story for another time.
What I have come to understand and to summarize:
It is ok to feel the emotions.
It is ok to seek help.
It is ok to not be ok and to be vulnerable.
Look at triggers.
Address it or it [whatever it is] can become carried [stress] in other ways.